Puppy Love or Love?

So I've been busy..

You Only Live Once

So it's the time of the year again where I get 2 weeks off for my semester break. 2 miserable weeks. And I haven't been productive AT ALL.

But I came to a sudden realization 'bout few days ago that this year. When I turned 19 on my birthday 3 months ago, I didn't even gave a damn. It was just another regular birthday to me. But just few days ago, I really have no idea but, I somehow lost track of how old I am. I had to confirm with my sis that I'm actually 19 this year and not 18 which I thought I was. Which is sad, cause I haven't actually accomplish anything far more than I had ever hoped. People half my age are already planning what college/university to attend. And I still have no idea what I wanna do in life. And my faghag told me that if I fail, there's always Sugar Daddies *insert meme here* ... Would any of you go for Sugar Daddies? Like seriously? They're so old :/ *no offense* But yeaa.. But I really have no idea whether I will go for a Sugar Daddy in the first place. I guess there IS a first for everything. lol 

Speaking of a first for everything. Yesterday was the first time where I actually sneaked out of home to club :P Never in my life have I done anything like that! I felt like an escape convict. HAHAHA But yea.. It was scary. Cause I didn't actually went out the front door. I went out the back. The plan was my friend coming to my house to pick me up at 12am. My parents however, decide to come to the dining room and start watching a DVD at 11pm. And you know how movies are usually an hour and a half long? But thank god my friend was half an hour late. So when the movie finished, my parents went back up the their room, and I sneaked downstairs. And I'd thought they would instantly went to bed cause they complained that they didn't get enough sleep yesterday cause I brought a friend home till 2am and apparently we were making a racket. But no, they went on and watch ANOTHER movie. #gg.com So the minute their door closed, I went straight down and out the back door without even looking back. I was damn scared. Imagine if I was caught, I think I'll never see the sunlight, EVER.  Well, YOLO. 

But I guess it was fun. I went clubbing with 4 straight friends (2 girls 2 guys) and a gay friend to Marketplace again. HEHE All my straight friends fell in love with the music there I guess. And if my stalking skill did not fail me, I think I saw Jason Is A He and the love of his life :P hehe 

Went down to SG for Raya :P 

BITCH OUT :) 

The Attention Seeker

Was reading @LeoNut's blog and the latest post just inspired me to write one. HAHAH

Attention seeking (attention)
1. Enjoying the attention of others to you

About a month ago, a good friend promised me that he'll praise me about my looks EVERYDAY till the day he forgets. lol

So right about 8.30pm everyday, I can just expect his whatsapp or the little annoying Facebook pop up chat, just to praise me about how I look. lol

Cheesy rite? But I, as an attention seeker, enjoyed it! HAHAHA It makes me happy! heheheh even though it was somewhat forced upon him.. hahahah :33

Bitch Out :D 

MarketPlace

I realized I've haven't been updating. lol 

2nd year is fucking busy!! I wonder where you guys find the time to blog all the time!! :( 

Anyways, updates!! HEHEHEHE

I broke my gay club virginity yesterday!! HEHEHEH FUCKING HAPPY! It wasn't as great as I thought it would be, but rite, Marketplace has like the best house music EVERRRRR!!!! I never thought I'd visit Marketplace like so soon.. maybe when I'm working.. lol But now got chance to go, go lah rite? hahaha 

It all started with a friend. A friend who'd never been to a club. And she wish to club before she leaves next week to further her education abroad for 4 years. And it was only then, the openly gay friend in our group suggest that we go Marketplace and after that we crash at dad's condo in Mont' Kiara. 

And in our group, only 5 of us went. 3 guys, which only one of us are straight, and 2 girls, who are also straight. All wanted to experience the gay night scene. And I tell you, the four of us, we like never club before like that!! lol 

Never have I seen so many guys in a club before! AND IN MARKETPLACE, CAN DANCEE!!!!! I LAIKE!! AND THE MUSIC THERE IS LIKE 10000000000000000000000000000 TIMES better that all the other clubs I've been too..!! Seriously!! Even my friends(straight) were like impress of the environment!! We've even set up a date to come back in the next few weeks!! nyehehehehe :3 

And guess what shirt I wore? Fucking cheesy.. hahahahahah 

Quite a few slide me. hehehehehe 

But there were quite a few disappointing moments when I danced on the stage but no one wanted to danced with me.. :( saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. lol But then again, it's my first time there.. heheheh My second time, Imma party hard like maaad! :P AND DESPITE THE SHIRT! Only 1 guy grinded me :(((((( saaaaaaaaaaaaaaad still :( 

Bitch Out, Bitches! 

Thank God!

I took my first HIV test and it came back Negative. :')

Meh

Whoooooooo... It's been ALMOST a month since my last post. lol

I've been busy and I can't find things to blog about. :/ lol

My parents went to Singapore recently and got me something back!! :D

I sort of told them to get it for me in the "either get it for me or never return" tone. I know.. I sound like a brat! But I'm noooott!!! Like really! I work hard for everything I do. I get good grades. I don't smoke (except for shisha). I hardly club. So yea.. They should be proud of me. lol *dumb blond moment ON*

Anyways. I've been super busy lately. I only have limited time to myself :( saaaaaaaaaaaaaad meaning less fap and more work.

But anyhow, the busy-ness is gonna end by the end of this week!!! WHEEEEEEE!! Can't wait. 

I heard that Instagram was down for a couple of days due to a storm in the US. lol I pity them camwhorers. HAHAHAHAHA 

I just outed to like a big bunch of my friends last week. And I'm glad that they're cool with it. lol That means I can now use my new wallpaper freely then, HAHA Plus! One of them saw my browser history.. EMBARRASSED MUCH!! 

Anyone free on the 4th or the 6th ar? Cause the production I'm involved in needs audience and we need the crowd badly :( I hope you guys can make it though. Cause it's about HIV awareness and they are gay scenes in it. And I'm trying to get the gay couple in it to kiss. So yeaa.. 

Do come and support this wonderful event. It would mean a lot :DD Plus, you'll be doing kids born with HIV a favor... :) 

And erm... This guy, 

is FUCKING HOT in The Amazing Spiderman! Watch it! To believe it! lol

klah, BITCH OUT!!! :DDD 

Tired.

I don't remember being this tired. Everyday, my schedule has been 

0545 - Wake Up

0800 - Class

0900 - Breakfast

1000 - Gym

1200 - Lunch

1500 - Class

1700 - Meetings

2000 - Dinner

2200 - Meeting

2230 - Go Home

2330 - Homework/Stone/Chores

0100 - Sleep

I don't remember a time where I actually stop and rest and have some alone time. I don't even have time to do wank watch all the movies I've downloaded. Plus, this university application thingy is killing me by stressing me out. I need to run here and there to get this document and that document. 

And, the last time I had a meal with my momma and poppa was 2 weeks ago. I am so sad. Everyday, I leave the house before the sun rises and only returns waaaaay after the sun sets. The only time I get to see my family is IF they stay up late, which they hardly do, or they tell me in advance that they want me home for dinner. AND! It's been about 2 months since I saw my grandma :( 

In addition to that schedule, I don't even think I'll have time to revise my work. And I'm taking subjects that people say you can score A in like that "snap". 

So yea. That's how my daily schedule is. And even my Saturdays and Sundays are quite hectic. But around last week, I got my hands on two tickets to Super GT in Sepang for Saturday and Sunday, I was so tired I gave them to my not so interested in GT parents. But I think they had fun while I just rot at home in the morning. I didn't know why, but I slept at 10pm the day before (Saturday) and I woke up at FREGGIN 6AM! God! I was sooooo tired. But thank god for LeoNut to keep me company :DD HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA 

But yea, I went out after that to do some work with some friends. We had an International Intern coming in from Hong Kong and apparently it's our duty to pick him up and show him a wonderful first day in Malaysia for his 1 and a half month stay in Malaysia. I ended up coming back home at 12.30am. Just great. So tired :( 

I would Bitch out, but I'm too tired. HAHAHA 

AWKWARD TURTLE

As a homo, you tend to know more homos living in the society. For example, I am involve in an organization, and we have 4 homos in it including me. And apparently I'm the only one who's aware of this fact. And all four of them knows that I am gay :) But the three of them doesn't know that the others are gay. Confusing, isn't it? HAHAHAH 

But yea, one day I cannot tahan, I just push them three together and tell them they're all gay. I would really do it, but I need to find the time. Cause I'm sick and tired of them asking me whether do you think he's gay or straight. I MEAN, COME ON LAAAH!!! ASK THEM LAAH!!! Although I know the answer, doesn't mean I am in the position to tell you rite?! ishhhh

So yea.. That applies to straight girls too. This happened like a few times already. Where my gay friend would be the topic of their conversation. 

A: OMG, I think I'm in love. 

B: Who? Him? I think he's gay.

A: REALLY? No way.

B: Seriously? Come on, look at the way he dresses.

A: Yea.. He does dress very nicely.

B: Duhh.. 

AND THE WHOLE TIME I'M JUST SITTING BESIDE THEM LISTENING TO THEIR CONVERSATION. And then they would ask ME for my opinion. What can I say? 

Me: I donno.

A: Really? Come on lah. 

Me: I REALLY DONNO.

B: A! Gay men all dress very nicely one mah.

A: Ya hor.. But sure a not? HIM?? What do you think leh "ME"?

Me: I betul betul donnoooooooooo.... Why don't you ask him if you wanna know?? 

A: Don't dare laaah.

B: Sure gay already one laaah. Look at the way he look at girls. Like no fire one.

But yea, what would you guys do if you were stuck in a situation like this? O.O I have this friend, she has Grindr and Jack'd on her phone so she would know for sure. lol 

BITCH OUT :D 

The Perfect Date

We all had that one perfect date with our boyfriend (which I sadly don't have) we all had pictured in our heads. I keep picturing mine whenever I wanna fall asleep. I don't know why, but I just do. It's kind of cliche isn't it? hahaha But yea. So I'mma share here, what my perfect date is :) I would imagine him picking me up from school after my class. heheh

1. He waits from me at his car for my arrival.

2. He greets me as I approach and opens the door for me. ( say what you want lah. I still want it to happen)

3. He then asks me about my day and I ask him about his.

4. Then on the way to our destination, he will sing along to the radio in an attempt to impress me.

5. When we arrive at the restaurant, we would sit across each other.

6. We would then talk about what happened the day. Or any other significant event that had happened the day before or whatever.

7. After dinner, we would then go out for my favorite desserts, cendol.

8. Then we would go to the movies where we can snuggle and hold hands together

9. After that, we then would go to the parking lot beside the lake near my house and just watch the busy night life

10. Which, I would then fall asleep on him and him not daring to wake me up, spends the night together by the lake.

So yea.. :D This is my ideal perfect date. hahaha quite pathetic if you ask me, but yeaa.. A date's a date. What's yours? ;)

Bitch Out :D  

Stereotypical?

Today, I just gave out my first fashion tip to a girl :D 

I hardly do that. lol For me, that's like some what an achievement. HAHAHAH And it's my first time giving it fashion advice. HAHAHA And plu's are known for giving out advices some more. lol 

Anyway, back to my topic of the blog of today of the month of the year, OBSESSION. Over the weekend, I went out and bought more Sharpies. I already have Sharpies, the colors that I bought, and I also have some that I haven't even took them out of the packet yet and I went out and bought more. Like seriously. I have absolutely no idea what I wanna do with my supply of Sharpies. And those that are opened are still brand new. Hardly touched them. I guess I just liked Sharpies. Maybe... I know some people likes to buy lots and lots of underwear. Not pointing any fingers or anything but yea. Ya guys have any obsessions you like to share? :D 

Bitch Out :D 

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Bitch Post

I've hated this girl since orientation last year in February after we shook hands. I've never like you. My friends don't like you. I doubt even the lecturers like you. Let's call her Joanne. 

Joanne, had this fake, American accent. It's like those can instantly tell it's fake already one. The rite, she's those type that likes to sing and act even though she sucks at it (in my opinion lah). Seriously. like those "nyeh" type only. Not even the chun chun type. But she thinks she is lah. 

What I'm busy with right now is this theatre thingy, and I'm the person that provides food for all the actors. And SHE'S ONE OF THE ACTORS! And lemme tell you this, she acts like a frekkin diva and everything! She wants everyone to fuss about her. She wants to be the center of EVERYONE's attention. Just so you know, since her first semester about a year ago, her circle of friends revolves around this one girl, and thats it. I don't think she hangs out with anyone other than girl. (just sayin')

But yea... She's those over confident person. And you'd think, she would get her lines down like after the second day, cuz she likes to act and all.. But nooooo... she comes in early, sits and hangs around, and does absolutely nothing! NOTHING! DAFAK! I don't mind if you wanna hang around but you forgot your lines! FUCKERRRR!! THAT FUCKING BITCH! 

And hor,,, me and her got history one. Well.. only me lah. She damn whore one! Last semester, she just came up to my crush from the back and just lay a big fat smooch on his lips! She crossed the line! Like seriously! Thats one thing I will never forgive her! 

Plus, she's the type that gets all touchy and all with EVERYONE! My BFF also like freaked out by her and my BFF's a girl. Ohhh.. a fact. Joanne only has like 2 friends in my course. And she once complained to someone, which I overheard, that she thinks that people are avoiding her cause they feel terrified of her so called "talent". 

BITCH! WHAT TALENT?! NOBODY LIKES YOU CAUSE YOU'RE A FREKKIN DIVA! 

Oh yea... get back on topic. Today, I like literary shouted everyone to tick what they want for dinner and to tick it cause the minute I leave,  I will only return with the food. Cause I don't wanna walk all the way to the restaurant to buy and then walk all the way back to find that someone haven't tick their name for dinner. But yea.... So there was I, shouting to everyone to tick their name while she was just TALKING AND TALKING AND TALKING! BITCH! 

So yea. I thought she ticked and all. But NOOOOO!! I had to walk ALL THE WAY to the restaurant, order the food, wait for the food, walk back with the food, then find out that she haven't tick her name. So I had to walk ALL THE WAY back to the restaurant, WAIT FOR HER FOOD, WALK ALL THE WAY BACK WITH HER FOOD, just so she could have her dinner! THAT BITCH! 

Of course lah, I took revenge by spitting in her nasi goreng :) plus, I told the waiter to make it extra extra extra spicy. nyeheheheh NEVER MESS WITH ANYONE WHO HANDLES YOUR FOOD! 

Bitch Out! :) 

The Randomness in Me.

Sorry about the delay. But was kinda sort of busy last week. I was away in Cameron for some seminar or some sort. 

So about quite a while back, I was reading the news online when I found out Jim Parson was getting married to his long time boyfriend! O.O I just couldn't believe it wheyyyyyy!! NEVER would I thought that Sheldon Cooper had a little pink in him. HEHEHEH Anyways... I wish him and his partner *Not bad Sheldon! not bad* good luck. 

Now okaay. Back to the important stuffs. HEHEH So yea. Yesterday. I resumed my duties as a food provider and bought them Dominoes. 

This guy from the group came and teman me to jaga the food. Let's call him BONBON. Then he was starting to ask all these personal question on whether am I gay or not. lol But yea. I didn't tell him and just brushed off the topic. Then we got onto the topic of checkin in because he told me he wanted to check in via Facebook. And he asked me what to type for the status of the check in. And I just took his phone and start typing away. I typed in 

"Dinnar Taimeeeeee.... :3" 

and showed him and he said don't want. His reason? 

"Later my partner ask me why I type like that cause thats not how I type."

My head was like.... hmmm... Partner. Lab partner? *he's currently in foundation in health science* Which was a normal assumption rite? So I asked him that. 

"Lab partner ar?"

And he shook his head. 

"Girlfriend ar?"

Again. He shook his head. 

"THEN WHOOO???"

His reply....

"You really that blur ar?"

And I'm like

IN ME WAS LIKE NO WAYYYYYY!!! He don't look gay at all!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY!!!! WTFFFFF!! I was already under the impression that he was straight as hell. Then it occurred to me that not all straight men are interested in theatre. Cause there were already 2 jantans in the production that likes jantans. And that excludes me and BonBon. lol Oh well. this taught me one thing. Never judge a book by it's cover. :P 

BITCH OUT! :) 

Stupid Stupid Stupid.

Grindr.

If there was a printed Grindr tee, would any of you wear it out in public? It's just a thought. But yea... I've thought of wearing mine out. But I don't dare :/ I donna why I bought it in the first place. HAHA probably for the fun of it I guess.. But yea.. Would you? This isn't the first plu tee I bought. lol HAHA 

Another funny post I found on tumblr.. Enjoy :)

Pixie Post

Was on Tumblr and came across this.... Hmmm... It's a sign. BRB =)

Love?

Stupidity. Not a word I like to use. But that's what I have. 


About 19 days ago, I told this guy I loved him. I wonder what got over me. Let's review the facts together.


1. He's on Jack'd.

• He had a different name, but with his picture on. So it's him. I got scared cause I wasn't out to him and decided to delete Jack'd and settle for grindr. >.< 

2. He's hot.

• He's actually quite good looking. Some even say he resembles me, with the big head and the hipster glasses. There was this one time, both of us came to school in plain white tees and jeans and converse. WEIRD! 

3. His baju's are all named. 

• Seriously! His clothes are all with nice names. H&M, TopMan, Uniqlo, Zara. EVEN HIS SHOES AND BAGS!!! Frekkin Paul Smith and shitzz! Plus, almost all of the clothes he wears are currently up to date.

4. He takes off his pants in public.

• Seriously. Who does that? I think I saw all of his boxers, undies, and even boxer-briefs. Cute maxxx. HEHEH

5. He's funny. 

• He would always ketuk me on twitter and fb. I mean, that means he's seeking attention rite? O.O

6. We kissed. 

• What more to say? 

7. He said I love You.

• HOW WAS I SUPPOSE TO KNOW HE MEANT THAT DIFFERENTLY?!?!?!?!? 

So yea. But too bad he don't feel the same way I felt. I admit, I died a LOT on the inside, I was devastated =( 

I had to see him the next day too. And I admit, it WAS awkward. I tried avoiding him. But yea. It didn't work. Somehow, we still got stuck in the same room together. HAHA He even serenade to me on the guitar. But then again, that's how he use to treat me. Out of no where, he would like carry me up in the air and carry me like how a boyfriend would carry his girlfriend. HOW NOT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE LAIKE THAT?!?!?! So now, we've maintain the status quo. Him annoying the shit out of me in twitter and fb, while I just sit there and imagine a perfect relationship with him. =) 

BITCH OUT! 

Delivery Bitch

Today, I had to buy food and water for the whole club that I'm involved in. It's sorta my job. :( sighhhh But then again, the experience of a delivery boy was fun. HAHAH But I don't like carrying TWO BOXES OF MINERAL WATER ALL MY MYSELF THOUGH :) #justsaying And carrying 18 packets of bungkus nasi was ALRITE! I even took the time to label everyone's name on the water bottle and their rice, and I even placed their fork and spoon nicely on the packet rice. Sighh... No other delivery boy would do that. Again, #justsaying :) 

Other than that, I've been filling up my free time watching this and other bunch of movies and series.. :3 

Call me old fashion, but I kinda like this show. This is sorta my 2nd time watching it. hahahah 

Vanness is fucking HOT! 

Bitch Out! 

Wisdom Comes Pain

So yea.. It's that time of my life where people my age will get our wisdom tooth. I had it for around half a year already. But I was just too lazy to do anything. But that one teeth at the back is doing some serious damage to my perfectly straight teethes in the front. 

Appointment for the extraction is scheduled on next Wednesday. Which gives me exactly 8 days (including today) to eat up as much as I want. Probably because from what I heard, the pain will last till about 3-6 months. T.T And no solid, hard food during that period. From one of my kawan's experience, she said they have to cut up her gums, cut her teeth, take out the teeth, SEW back the gum. She didn't have any solid food for like about a year. :( NOW I TERRIFIED!! 

Any of you guys wanna share your painful experience? (To ease my pain) HAHAHAHA :( 

Chill and Have a Dumpling.

Being on break for 2 weeks seemed like a good idea after a hectic four months of being in class filled with group assignments. This smart guy in me decide to take up 4 subjects this semester. 3 subjects that require mostly group work, Theatre, PR, & Speech. And 1 subject being an all reading subject, History. Mana tau, history suddenly got one major huge ass group assignment pop out of the blue. So yea. That meant that my day was only filled with meetings EVERYDAY! 3 weeks before my finals I've spent EVERYDAY from that 3 weeks in campus. EVERYDAY! FREKKIN 21 DAYS! 

Then along came the holidays. WHEEEEEE. 2 weeks of rest. But I donna how I've always get work for myself to do. 

• Club event that'll last from now till July, that takes up my Mondays, Wednesdays, and  Fridays evening onwards. 
• Uni applications.
• Transfer applications.

Sigh... And I planned to visit Singapore to catch Chorus Line too.. But I think that'll have to be postponed too :(

If only there was more time in a day. 

I'd give my life away to see this happen for real! 

BITCH OUT! :D 

Pixie Post

Was on tumblr and came across this! 

Isn't it wonderful what technologies can do today? :D 

Happy Mother's Day

I would like to wish all Mother's and "mums" out there, 
HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY!! :D 


Mummy, 

Happy Mother's Day momma. I love you!  I know you'll be disappointed when you find out who am I actually. I'm sorry, but I love you and will always do. I know that you'll find it in your heart to accept me for who I am. To accept the fact that your little boy likes mens. To accept the fact that you'll never have grandkids(maybe). I really dread the day when you find out who I am. It's gonna be hard. But I'll always be your little boy. :D Know that. <3

Confession Taime..

I'm GAY! 

There! I said it. But that doesn't change who I was. Right? I'm still that guy. That guy who used to laugh, the guy who cried,  along with his friends, his family. But now, I'm stuck!  Stuck with a label. A label that will be permanently be with me for the rest of my life.

I remember those times where all my guy friends talked about girls, and being the odd one out, and trying to fit in. All you can do is just sit there and agree with what they say to avoid suspicion from your friends. 

But that was the past. A past I am willing to let go. A past I want to forget. 

Today, I've learned to love the fact that I like guys and am secure in my sexuality, I've been able to tell other people. I am not ashamed anymore. It's who I am. Just like I'll always dress a little more to the occasion, I'll always have a weakness for underwear shopping and caramel latte, and I'll always like boys. My parents may not exactly love it, but they can deal! But just wait till I bring home my first boyfriend. 

I was born this way, bitch out!